Constant Struggle

The decision whether to continue the relationship is a constant struggle for me and I believe for him also. There are so many factors that affect both of us. Guilt, availability, how will it end, fairness, are some factors we both discuss. But, our relationship is so fulfilling on many levels, the positives are out weighing the negatives right now. Is it the most ideal situation? Absolutely not. Neither of us saw this coming. We were both blindsided and shocked at the relationship that has developed. We were both looking for the same thing, and this was not remotely it. However, I believe life puts things in front of you for a reason. Not that this was destiny, mind you, but there is a reason. Neither of us have figured it out yet.